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Oh My

Shelley — Sun, 20 Jun 2010 12:33:10 +0000

I’ve been spending a lot of time with my cousin, well on Skype, it’s pretty cool.
It’s nice being close to someone on my fathers side. It’s nice to be so close to anyone actually. It’s kind of funny though. I never thought my best friend would be my 13 year old cousin.
I don’t know if I could have gotten through the death thing if it wasn’t for him. He had already left for Vegas with his mom but i got to see him for 20 min in the airport. I’ll talk more about the trip at another time though. It was odd…
But this was about my cousin and how much I love him and how lucky I am to have someone in my life that I connect with, especially with such an age difference and a distance. The digital age has helped me be close to my family and for that I am ever grateful.

I love you forever and ever and ever.

Shelley — Fri, 28 May 2010 00:00:27 +0000

So a few of you might already know but my grandmother died last saturday and I’m flying to Albuquerque to be with my family and help them with all the craziness. I hate asking for money but at the current time I have little or nothing to spend. Donations are awesome and I can pay back if you need me to. It might be a bit since I’m not working and have a VERY limited Unemployment benefit situation, but I will do everything in my power to pay you back, even if it’s in beer or picking up dog poop (that’s the most disgusting thing I can think of).

Even if you can only donate a dollar or just send good thoughts (or prayers whatever you believe) everything is helpful.

I think it lets you specify if it’s a donation or a loan when you check out, if not you can email me and let me know.

Thank you again.

<3 Shelley

I’m going to try and chronicle my trip here,I’ve told a few people about the drama going on and they say it’s good enough for a book. I think it’s all crazy and scary but It’s worth a shot right?

I’ll still be taking my usual photos and hopefully i’ll be able to use my plane time to get up to date with the blog as well. (I just need to figure an offline way to use WordPress…)

Summer 2009 update – Growing in leaps and bounds.

Shelley — Mon, 27 Jul 2009 23:48:56 +0000

So it’s been 11 (7/16) days since I set my goals for the summer and I wanted to update on my progress (more for me than anyone else)

Sister and Family moving to Texas – This was easier than I thought. Their going away party was on the 19^th and I cried and cried. Once I thought about it was the best thing I could have done, getting it out and letting them know I loved them that much to blubber in front of all their friends. The biggest thing I realized that my brother-in–law is more than Sabrina’s husband, he was one of my first friends in High School and that didn’t hit me until then, I gave all the kids hugs and told them how much they mean to me.

They started their journey on the 23^rd. Sabrina has been texting from the road, which was really hard at first but it’s been nice knowing what was going on and all that. She uploaded photos last night and that was nice also. They are now in Texas and the text I got a few minutes ago read “Sam just asked where are the mountains with snow”. Sam is my heart, I had him for 5 days when he was a baby so I’ve always felt a little responsible for him, that text broke my heart a little and also made me laugh. The stress of this is almost all gone, I get a little teary but I’m excited to have a chance to visit Texas now!

Cut out Caffeine! I had my last slightest bit a week ago saturday in a sweet tea, it was hard not getting my regular Stumptown at Pine State Biscuits but my nerves have been so much happier with me. No more morning soda or occasional soda at that. I don’t find myself always hunching my shoulders and having the feeling of my skin crawling, of course I’m tired and know that I can’t really do much about it… It’s been worth it though. My anxiety level has dropped so low with just that.

The 1 year anv of the breakdown hasn’t been hard. I kind of wish I didn’t remember dates so well… Part of me feels silly for talking about it out loud, I don’t want people to think that I’m an attention seeking or crazy enough to be talky about it. In reality it’s not something I feel I should be ashamed of. Life and stress got to me so I took time off from work. I slept a lot and started taking anti anxiety medication. Well more than before. Maybe I shouldn’t talk about it so casually, because it’s not like I was committed or anything. I just took time off work.

The rest of the things on my list aren’t really things that can be a big change right now, or at all, more of things I deal with and the immediate things help lessen the stress of them.

The “breakup” has me stressed of course, we are getting together tomorrow to talk about it. Not sure what will happen or what I really want to happen honestly. It’ll be nice to see him though. I might not feel so compelled to go out on the weekends and do almost stupid shit. Mostly I’m proud that I haven’t given into the compulsions, that in itself is the biggest show of growth for me, and not because of this situation for ME, I’ve come a long way!

My Sissy

Shelley — Fri, 10 Apr 2009 08:23:22 +0000

My sister is here for the Birthday weekend. I love having her here it makes things feel “right”. I’ve realized lately, well it’s been pointed out by someone I care about, that I’m a lot closer to my family than a lot of people are. I never thought that I’d be so family oriented, I’m always the one at family functions hiding away reading or doing the opposite of what everyone else is doing. I never thought that being close to my Mom and Sister could be seen as strange. The connection I have with them, I’ve realized, is not typical and I’m thankful for that. My mom was almost 20 when I was born, and while I knew it was pretty young at the time it didn’t hit me till I was well above twenty and being around kids the age I would have been when my mom was my age… So now at 34 (almost) I look at 14/15 year olds with terror thinking I was 14 almost 15 when my mom turned 34… 20 is too young to have kids! I know that because of that my mom and I have had a different relationship, more like sisters at times. We were a team for a long time, just her and I. We are still like that too, I’m happy about that though, I like joking about things with my mom that other people wouldn’t tell their parents. My sister is 3.5 years younger than I am and I was a pretty grown up kid, I have always felt like a mom to her or an aunt at the least. Her first steps were from me to her dad and I remember changing her diapers (mostly, I couldn’t get the pins in right). These days we have a very close relationship. She’s not only my baby sister she’s my “sissy” (yeah we call one another that, it’s a funny story) and she’s my best friend. We are so very different and I like that. Neither of us would be friends with the other not because we wouldn’t like one another but because we don’t have as much in common. I think she’s taught me the most about tolerance because of that. So having her here for three days for my birthday makes me feel happy. I get to show her my world in a different way than normal and she gets to meet my friends. This time I’m forcing her to actually talk to people too!