Summer Goals…

So I’ve been wanting to start being more “personal” in my Personal blog… I know, i rarely make sense.

So to achieve that goal there are the goals I’m working on, I said summer but really it’s more of a RIGHT NOW thing to be accomplished as soon as I can and be a better me right away. I know it takes time but I’m impatient and that’s how I want it. SO There!

This is a list of stressers and how I am going to fix them.

• Sabrina (my step sister) and her family moving away next week – you don’t realize how much someone means to you until they are going. Losing my big sister is stressing me out BIG TIME.

  1. I need to remember that I’m not LOSING I’ll still talk to her the same amount (on FB) that I do now, I just won’t have as easy access to hugs.

• KCon coming up, I’m not stressed about it but I’ve had everyone else stressing out and asking me the same stupid things over and over and it’s almost getting to me.

  1. I just need to continue what i’ve been doing and it’ll all be ok. I can’t let other people’s stress turn into mine, working harder on this will help keep everyone stress free, or at least less stress free.

• New Job – not a huge stress but it’s different and I’m just trying to get in the grove of getting it down, even if I don’t really Do much of anything

  1. This is just time, can’t do anything about this except not stress about it

• changing of friend dynamics/dating/friends

  1. just relax and not let things get in the way. No dating, just being. Have fun with my friends and don’t worry about being in a relationship or anything like that. Kind of where I was before but on a more serious level of actively NOT dating.

  2. No getting super close to people right away, this always ends badly, take the time to get to know my current friends and not worry about making new friends. Enjoy who I have now and make that a higher priority

  3. no spending too much time with any one friend unless it’s in a group setting.

• having regular sex and worrying about becoming pregnant even though we are careful – this always freaks me out even if there isn’t anything to worry about.

  1. No sex. Period end of story

  2. getting on birth control, already have plan in motion for IUD, keep on that and i’ll be set if the time comes when I DO decide to have regular sex with one person.

• summer in general stresses me out, so many family functions and friend functions it gets a little overwhelming sometimes

  1. plan ahead and use my calender nothing to stress about if I keep on top of it all. Family functions don’t have to be a worry, pretend they are just like hanging out with my friends!

• the 1 year anv of me having my breakdown is a little stressful for some reason, always worried it’ll happen again I guess

  1. I’m not in the same place I was last year… I’m not the same person as I was last year.

  2. I don’t have the people harassing me that were last year so there is no need to fear this

  3. make sure my meds are at the right level (started doing this) and use the anti- anxiety if I feel I need to, that’s why it’s there, don’t feel bad because it is what it is. It’s to HELP.

• oh too much caffeine! I really need to cut that out!

  1. Cut out the damned caffeine!

  2. No seriously

  3. Cut it out!