Hearts and Noses

As I was walking to work this morning I noticed the sidewalks and how they could use a good power washing. I know you are asking “What are you talking about?”

In 2001 I visited New York for the first time and one of the things I thought was strange but really great is that they power washed the streets. Of course this got me to thinking of the new mayor and how many hard decisions he had to make when he came into office. He had to decide what was best for the city and when I returned in 2004 there were no power washers cleaning the streets.
I’ve had to make a lot of hard decisions this week. Decisions I didn’t always want to make and decisions I should have made a long time ago. I can’t feel guilty about doing what’s best for me and my heart in the long run but it doesn’t make it any easier. I’ve never been easy at putting myself and my emotional wellbeing first and now I’ve done it. It’s amazing how hard it is and how much it hurts; I know it’s for the better. I just really miss him.